pissed off. angry. over it.
at the end of the day, and more than anything ever, i wish that not every other member of my immediate family was a total doucher. it would be really nice to have a support system and come home knowing that if i mess up, there are people waiting to help, encourage, and motivate. sometimes it gets really hard trying to do good and be the best person i know how to be when i have no role models, or any reason to practice when i'm 'home'.
it's hard to always keep a postitve attitude. but i am trying my best. and that is the only thing i can do. so, i guess that is just going to have to be good enough.