new years eve!

well, happy new years ever everyone! i have been such a busy bee with work and the holidays and everything happening here lately.
but, it's new years eve and i actually don't have to work for once, so me and my bestie are going to parrtttyyyy! and our idea of partying is going to denny's around 9 pm, coming home, watching something on tv, and maybe drink a margarita. we're really wild and crazy!

buuuuut...
it's a new year. and i've been thinking about a lot of things that i wanna do/accomplish.
here goes!

Goal list for 2010:
- save a lot of money and buy a kit and supplies to start screen printing. I've already dreamed up a name for myself, "pioneer printing" so, i think that's pretty legit. screen printing is something that i've wanted to do since about the 10th grade. and that's been about 6 years ago.

- renovate my basement. i need one half of it to be my living space. and i need another half of it to be my work space. 
- learn to sew! this is a really major one.
- make time everyday to make something.
- update my blog on a daily basis.
- figure out how to better balance my work life and doing leisure things.
- get an etsy shop going.
- potatoes are my passion in life. like, i'm completely obsessed with potatoes in every form. on august 3rd, i decided to stop eating french fries. and i have been completely 100% successful. so, i'm going to make the effort to stop eating potatoes that are filled with other things. no more loaded baked/mashed potatoes. no more hash browns. i'm going to try to lay off the grease, in general.
- heres the big one! i would really like to stop working a conventional job by the time i'm 23 years old. i know there are ladies out there who have really successful lives creating/selling their products online. as well as their vintage finds. this is my dream in life. i want to be self sufficient doing what i love doing. i know it's going to take a lot of hard work, but i think i'm ready for it.

HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE!

i have zero holiday spirit. i am so over it.
but, yesterday i saw this christmas three and i yelled. i love it so much. this season, i am in love with white trees. and since a little tot i have been obsessed with color coding everything i own.

next year, my tree will look exactly like this. if i accomplish nothing else in december '10, i won't care. as long as i have a christmas tree that looks like this, i will be completely satisfied with life. i'm not even kidding.

i received this little beauty from nathan. it's even prettied in real life. looove it.

i did finish up all my christmas shopping today. i spent a whopping 75 dollars on gift cards. which are the greatest/easiest gift you can buy someone. it's a lazy gift. and for the most part, i'm lazy in spirit.

more than anything, i am just really, really looking forward to a new year. i'm planning to make it an excellent one.

more new bangs!

this is the i'm tired/bored/need a shower edition.

still loving them.

today is monday. christmas is friday. i still have presents to buy/wrap. need a paycheck. jeez.

i finally took the plunge!

after months and months of wanting straight across bangs and being too lazy to go get them cut, last night i decided to chop them off myself. i'm very pleased!

me and harry. what a duo. looooove it.

movie time.

see ya.

snow!

it is snowing like crazy outside! and i loooooooove it! i also love that i don't have to work tomorrow, so i can have the laziest day ever! i'm totally going to enjoy it.

one week until christmas. i'm reminding myself it's only one day. 24 hours. it comes and goes. and it's going to be an entire year until it's here again. i have a really hard time convincing myself to love the holidays. i don't ever remember loving the holidays, or hating them. i just don't really have an opinion about it. i just know i could do without it, because they stress me out so much. maybe i'll eventually get into the swing of things.
but, i am happy to give everyone the gifts i got them.
still have a couple more things to buy. nothing major though.

i don't think i wanna take my christmas tree down. i think i might just leave it up and decorate it for all the seasons and holidays throughout the year.

adorableness.

isn't this the cutest thing you have ever seen?

anyways, i'm teaching myself to crochet solely because these afghans are so pretty. i want one, so, i'm going to learn to make one.

 

 

 

sooooo pretty. gotta learn to do it. i know it's very super time consuming, which is something i don't really have a lot of these days. but, i really wanna learn how to do it.

also, does anyone know anything about screen printing?

fill me in.

shew.

what a day.

everyone that could be rude today, was rude.
i got cussed out over an expired $3 dollar off coupon.
ripped a new asshole because some batty lady that was upset because all of our bags of candy said "happy holidays" instead of "merry christmas", and that didn't settle well with her because she loves jesus more than anything in the entire world, and she is tired of people with different religions than her getting their feelings hurt over the expression "merry christmas". she said "if i can't have jesus on my bag of candy, i'll leave it at the store to rot! i don't want it!"
welll, ok. leave?

i just wanna go to bed, but i'm not tired in the least bit.

finished nathan's and april's christmas shopping/stocking.
still have brother, sister, brother-in-law, and baby jonas to buy for.
christmas is 9 days away.

ex boyfriends are gross.

i miss nathan. don't really know when he's coming home.

bah humbug.

i've tried so hard

not to get sick this winter. working at walgreens had me paranoid because so many sick people come in and out there daily. so, i've been hand sanitizing like crazy, cleaning my counter off with disinfectant spray every hour or so. drinking lots of juice.

today my throat is burning so bad. runny nose. ear ache. ugh.

i cannot get sick. i cannot get sick. i cannot afford to get sick.

holiday shopping!

last night after work i decided it was time to do some christmas shopping. i ended up just picking up some stocking stuffers for april and nathan. both of them just happen to be the absolute hardest people to shop for because they have everything they want. if they want something, they go buy it. and i'm just the opposite. i want everything and talk myself out of buying pretty much everything. it's a really bad habit. and also kinda a really good habit. sometimes.

christmas checklist!
mom - finished.
brother - haven't started.
sister, brother-in-law & baby jonas - haven't started.
april - nearly finished.
nathan - nearly finished. still debating on a few things.
amanda - finished.
april's dad & girlfriend - haven't started.

i guess i have a lot more to buy then i thought. and definately not enough money. i got paid yesterday and don't get paid again until the 23rd. i figure that i will finish april's and nathan's this weekend. and not worry about my brother's or april's dads until the 23rd. i know that's totally last minute, but they're both just getting gift cards. and i can buy those at my work. so, i'm not worried.

i'm probably not going to get to enjoy the holiday anyway because i'll most likely be working christmas eve and christmas day. but there's always next year, i suppose. and i hate the holidays anyways!

i hate miley cyrus and vampires.

first snow of the season!

me and april took advantage of it!

today i was off work. so, we got up early this morning, got ready, and enjoyed the day! we went out for lunch and i ordered my first alcoholic drink for the first time, ever. and it was noon. ha! i'm glad i was with april and her mom. they were the perfect company. i was nervous. but, i'll have to admit it was delicious. and so was my burger. mmmm mmmm good.

we went to a junk/variety store place and it had some pretty good stuff. i didn't find much though, because i talk myself out of buying nearly everything. but, i did up leaving with a new pair of pajama pants. then we went to a peddlers mall, and april's mom bought me a real cute thermos for christmas. loved it.

i've been knitting since i got home this afternoon, all while watching harry potter. and i'm proably going to get into one of those kicks where i'm harry potter crazy for a month or so. i can't help it. i just think it's so badass. especially the prisoner of azkaban. i love the shit out of that stuff.

i'm tired. and i have to work tomorrow. 3:30 to 11pm. and then i work @ 8 am the next morning. what kind of sense does that even make? jeeez, i just LOVE walgreens.

my cell phone plan has been officially switched to at&t. which means...

i've wanted one of these beauties for way, way WAY too long. sure, i can't really afford it now, but i will be able to soon. and i will love it more than anything in the world, ever.

updates to xmas wishlist include:!

 these iphone cases.

 

and

that's all.

xmas wishlist.

it's almost christmas. i haven't really thought about much that i want. but, i figured i'd make a wishlist anyways.
so, here goes!

 

 

i love all of these shirts. the last one is definitely my motto for life right now. i really want the "my life rocks" shirt and the "fix health care or die" shirt. i'm too broke to buy them, though hahaha. they are the shiiiiit. check out the website printliberation.com for more.

still want some tom's shoes.

hair extensions. i want looooong hair so bad.

i also really, really REALLY want a sewing machine. i'd love to be able to sew and make all kinds of cute crafty things. i'd also like to have sewing lessons. hahaha.

 

i really need new bras. badly.

that's really all i can think of right now. i need to go shower and get ready to leave for the night. see ya later, folks.

procrastinating.

i have a whole list of things to blog about later.

right now i just need to find the motivation to get ready for work, and deal with old ladies who throw fits when they think their coupons haven't saved them as much as they should.

i love my job. :|

haters.

pissed off. angry. over it.

at the end of the day, and more than anything ever, i wish that not every other member of my immediate family was a total doucher. it would be really nice to have a support system and come home knowing that if i mess up, there are people waiting to help, encourage, and motivate. sometimes it gets really hard trying to do good and be the best person i know how to be when i have no role models, or any reason to practice when i'm 'home'.

it's hard to always keep a postitve attitude. but i am trying my best. and that is the only thing i can do. so, i guess that is just going to have to be good enough.

real quick!

i need to be getting ready for work. and i just saw this on weheartit.com and i wanted to post it.

i was really happy to see this. i figured the ideal size for a man would be like, a two. i'm glad it isn't though. i'm definitely not! but i just thought these ladies were sexy. and i wish my butt looked a lot more like Anna's. hooray for sexy average sized ladies!!! 

today is turkey day.

and i have to work.

buuut, before i go here are a couple of things i'm thankful for.
-i know i've been nonstop complaining about working at walgreens, but yesterday i got my first paycheck and it was glorious. and it was much MUCH more than i expected it to be. i just wanted to rip it out of my managers hand and go christmas shopping right then and there. so, even though it's shitty, i'm very thankful to have a job and a paycheck.
-i'm thankful for nathan mckinney. and i hope we're life partners forever. 4 1/2 years of friendship and 1 1/2 years of crazy wacky dateship. loooooove you.
-i'm thankful for april d. ridner. and i hope we're best friends forever. 8+ years of friendship. luh you.
-i'm thankful for my sister, my brother-in-law and their baby jonas. the cutest baby in the galaxy.
-i'm thankful for new friendships. hey heather!
-i'm also kinda thankful for having to work today so i don't eat way way waaaaay too much.

black friday shopping in the morning. kinda scared. i've never been. and don't really know what to expect. i just hope someone doesn't try to stab me over a television set. i just wanna find some good deals!

i have to get ready for work now. have a happy turkey day!

nephew jonas!

tomorrow is my nephew's first birthday. i'm bummed that i have to work the whole day, but i do get off in time to make it to the party. i just know it's going to be so precious. he's adorable.

Also, today i got a bunch of new craft pretties all for one dollar. so, that was really exciting!  hopefully i can get motivated and get things going. blah. gotta go!

help!!!

is this comforter real? if this thing exists, i want it. and i want it now. i'm not even kidding. love, love, love it.

help me find it in real life? please?

christmas tree!

i hate the holidays. i admit, i am a total scrooge. but, i am excited to put up a tree. i'm really into colored trees this year. can't wait to decorate!

ok. i think it's fair to say that i am obsessed with these white trees. i'm fairly positive that 3 of these pictures are the same tree. but it's just so pretty. i want a white tree this year. they're just so gorgeous. totally in love with these trees.

slightly refreshed

yesterday was a total shit day at work. a bunch of old men yelled at me because they apparently think walgreens is too expensive and confusing. i just really wanted to say "take your business elsewhere, i don't give a fuck!" it's not my problem. anyways, walgreens sucks. SUCKS. luckily, i was able to vent to April and Nathan. they're good for that.

las night i came home and listened to andrew jackson jihad. wonderful band. it really lifted my spirits. they're so amazing, and even better live. i think everyone should check them out. they're total perfection.

i was so exhausted, i went to sleep before 11:30 and didn't wake up until 10:30 this morning. i feel like i am just staying totally worn out from work and nothing about the job, other than a paycheck every two weeks is worth it. i did get a minute to work on some craft endeavors last night, which was good and refreshing. i was just too tired to get much done. i think i'm going to get a planner. i always have a really hard time balancing my life between work and doing the things i love. it's just hard for me to figure out how to make time. or when i do have time i want to sleep or hang out with my friends. i wish i could stay totally inspired all of the time.

my sister is in town from kansas right now along with her husband and my adorable nephew jonas! cutest kid in the world. she'll be here until after thanksgiving. then she leaves. holidays stress me out so much. i'm certain that i'm working thanksgiving this year. not sure about christmas yet.

stressed.

so, yesterday was my 21st birthday. and i spent it starting a new job at Walgreens. I'm very thankful for finally having another job. i'm so stoked to start getting regular paychecks and not being dirt poor. I don't want to complain, but so far i'm pretty sure i hate everything about it.

i might just be spoiled. but, i loved my first job more than anything. i had about 15 coworkers. everyone knew one another, for the most part, we were friends. a lot of us hung out afterwork. we were a tight knit family. and i know that walgreens can never provide that. today was only my second day, and i kinda feel like a lunatic, but sometimes you just know things. and i know i hate it. a couple of my new coworkers are friendly, but it's just a completely different atmosphere. ugh.

i'm trying my best to stay positive. the only thing that is getting me through is getting paychecks and being able to buy all my friends and family christmas presents. that is my driving force. i just hope things get better.

my first day off, i am staying in my basement and crafting all day. period.

birthday.

i'm officially 21.



yikes.
not real sure how to feel about it.

girls night!

last night me and a couple of my favorite gal pals enjoyed a nice dinner at Cracker Barrel. totally delicious. totally, totally delicious. then we went over to Wal mart and picked up a few groceries for my birthday party this weekend. big 21!!! we were poking through the craft aisle, and it before we left Wal mart we ended up buying foam visors, glitter glue, and all kinds of other little decorating things.

here is the end result.

21st birthday on monday!

accomplished!

i feel really happy right now. the last couple of days have been a real boost for my morale. it kinda seems like things are starting to sorta fall back into place. i'll have to admit, i am a little weary, because things have been really misplaced, or so it seems for a very long time. i'm just starting to feel a little more confident, like i have the power to choose where my life is going. and that's very exciting.

my life is nothing but a rollercoaster. one day, one minute, i am at my highest, then in a blink of an eye, everthing changes. my entire life could fall to pieces tomorrow. but that's ok, because i am happy tonight.

exciting news!

i've been unemployed for a little over a year now.
i've been looking for a job.
but, nothing ever seemed to work out.
tomorrow, i have a job interview.
it's the first call back i've had since i've been looking.

i have to have this job.
i hope i get it!
keep your fingers crossed for me!

nothing better to do!

typically, i would never post a survey.

but this is with pictures. and i don't have anything better to do.

1. Where is your cell phone:

it's right next to me.

2. Your hair:

 is red. and straight. but i wished it looked like this.

3. Your mother:

she's upstairs. and that's about all i can say about her.

4. Your father:

is somewhere else. and that's about all i can say about him.

5. Your favorite food:

it's a toss up.

chinese take out.

 or

any kind of breakfast food.

 6. Your dream from last night:

it was really weird.

7. Your favorite drink:

i cannot resist ice cold Pepsi.

8. Your dream/goal:

to become a better knitter/crafter. 

get a shop going on etsy.

and fully support myself, doing something i love.

9. What room are you in:

my bedroom.

10. What is your hobby:

knitting! thrifting! collecting yarn!

oh, and i also love getting tattoos.

which is something i always want more of.

11. What is your fear:

hmmm. i don't really know.

12. Where were you last night:

eating chinese food. 

watching the Informant!

and laying in bed.

13. Something you are not:

financially stable. :|

14. Muffins:

i love muffins!

so delicious!

15. Wish list items:

my 21st birthday is a week from today!

wishlist!

16. Where did you grow up:

Somerset, Kentucky!

17. Last thing you did:

I was grocery shopping with my best friend.

18. What are you wearing:

jeans. and a yellow and white striped thermal.

nothing very exciting.

19. Your TV:

isn't on.

20. Your pets:

i have 3 dogs.

but i really want:

a persian kitty!

21. Your friends:

are my family.

22. Your life:

hasn't been the easiest.

but, i don't think i would change it.

23. Your mood:

cold.

24. Missing someone:

well, sure!

25. Vehicle:

yeah, about that.

i wouldn't mind having one of these.

or

26. Something you’re not wearing:

i'm currently make up free!

27. Your favorite store:

i don't think i really have a favorite.

28. Your favorite color:

something in the green or teal family.

29. When’s the last time you laughed:

probably earlier today.

i don't really remember.

30. When’s the last time you cried:

yuck. one night last week.

31. Your best friend:

April and Nathan are my besties.

32. One place you go over and over:

I pretty much go everywhere over and over.

i always forget something.

33. One person who emails me regularly:

no one!

34. Favorite place to eat:

i prefer to eat at home.

35. Where do you want to be in 6 years:

i just want to be somewhere i love.

with the people i love.

doing what i love.

being in love is so weird. and hard. and sad. and happy. and strange. and exciting. and wacky. and fun. and stupid. and everything thing else in between.

if you're alive, and you're in love and you have never wanted to punch your boyfriend in the face, you're a liar.

nothing about being in love is perfect all the time. or any of the time. i think having bad times makes the good times that much sweeter. and if you have bad times, you'll never take the good times for granted. and that's the worst thing you could ever do.

sometimes it's really good to scream.

sometimes your boyfriend really does need to grow the fuck up.

and sometimes you are being crazy.

we just have to deal.

Organizing!

Today i got the sudden urge to clean and organize.
and that's what i've been doing for most of the afternoon.

If everything goes as planned, sometime after the first of the year, my living arrangements should be changing.
I'm very excited about it as well. If everything works out, about 4 of my friends should be moving into the house i'm living in now. And my mother should be moving out, into a new house. Living with my friends feels like a dream come true to me. There will be five of us living in a house together. I anticipate that there will be squabbles and arguments here and there. That's just kind of expected. But i hope that we all become a little happy family. And eat meals, and watch movies together. I just want everything to be great! I have only hopeful and positive thoughts right now when it comes to this!

Being so excited about different living arrangements made me want to clean and organize like crazy down in the basement. (Even though it will be at least 6 months before anyone moves in.) And that's what i've been working on today. I'm taking a small break right now to browse through some websites to look at shower curtains, coffee tables, and other odd's and end's of things.

I love this shower curtain from Target.

And i think it would come in handy,

as my bestie is very geographically challenged.

I'm also seriously in love with this shower curtain. Also from target.

It might be too girly though, considering probably 3 boys will be using it daily.

Or weekly. Ew.

Probably pretty much everything else that i'll get will be thrifted. I already have loads of 70's vintage kitchen things that i've picked up here and there. I probably have enough to fully decorate 3 kitchens. So, i can always switch things out when i get bored! I'm just so excited about this right now!

off to go clean!