Monday, June 21, 2010

this girls got woe.

First of all, i want to thank everyone who left nice little comments concerning my kitty Paul, and my last post. Your kind words meant a lot to me, so thank you!

Moving right along, i have a question. Do you any of you ever have an overwhelming need to stand out? Here lately i feel like i've lost my individuality and my creative juices entirely. I haven't really figured it out, but i'm blaming it on my job. I have to wear the exact same outfit as everyone else, every day. I work such weird hours, that i end up sleeping until the middle of the afternoon. My hangout hours don't really start until about midnight, and it's hard to motivate yourself to get out of pajamas, just to watch a movie at home with your boyfriend. Before i started this job, i used to craft atleast every single day. Now, I find myself knitting about once every couple of weeks.

It's so weird, but i am dying to make it known to all of my coworkers that i'm a weirdo. Atleast, i would be to them. I want to set myself apart from them in the biggest way that i know how. It's really hard for me to know that i have to look exactly like someone everyday, knowing that i'm completely different on the inside. At my previous job, which i loved more than anything, i could be myself, there was a dress code, but it was a lot less limiting to the one i have now, I felt like i still had a personality, and people knew who i was, and accepted it, and we were all one big happy family. It's so sad to me, but i really feel like i have lost part of myself because of a stupid job that i hate.

Have any of you gone through something similar to this before? I'd really like to know how you cope. My last two posts have been super complain-y, so I apologize for that. This is just something that has been bothering me for a while, and i thought i might as well go ahead and get it off my chest. I just need to know how to deal with this, i hate feeling like i'm just another fish in the sea.

xoxo, kara.

2 comments:

  1. Lately I've felt like I'm in a rut. I feel soooo completely unmotivated, and like you, I have been crafting and painting next to nothing compared to how I used to. I'm not really sure what to do about it either. I feel like I've been stifled but I don't really have a situation like you at your new job, so I'm not sure what's causing that feeling for me. I've been thinking about it for awhile. I feel like I need to find some new inspiration but I'm not sure where. Haha I'm sorry this wasn't any help really, but maybe we can figure out how to fix this!

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  2. teamwork! we'll get through this!

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