This last week has been really weird for me. It seemed like every day i had was a bad one, i couldn't get out of my funk. I was sleeping a lot later in the day than i normally do, not really following my daily routines. Me and Nathan got into a gross fight, and i ended up getting my feelings hurt pretty bad. Sunday, i had the entire day off work, and i woke up feeling like crap. I told my roommates that i was emotionally and physically under the weather, and we spent the entire day laying in bed and watching movies.
And then the week was completely over. Almost entirely wasted.
I've been second-guessing myself a lot here lately, especially when it comes to this blog. I feel like i've kind of lost my voice as a blogger, and i'm having trouble seeing why i really do this. I've always wanted to have a blog, and write, and connect with people, but it seems like a lot of my posts are forced, and i'm sure you can see that too. I've been trying lots of new things, like Wednesday Wishes and Friday Favorites, but i always end up getting stressed out because i never know what to wish for, or i can't think of what my favorite things are right off the top of my head. I don't feel like i'm connecting with anyone.
I feel like a lot of the things that i'm interested in aren't things are are popular in the blogger world, and that's completely fine. But i want to post about those things, and i want to find other bloggers who enjoy those same things. I guess i'm having a hard time finding my "crowd."
I'm not trying to be pathetic. This is just how i feel and there isn't any use in trying to cover it up with a daily outfit post. (although, those are fine too!) This is just something i wanted to get off my chest.
And here's a print i really love, so this post isn't just me complaing.
you can find it here.
xoxo, kara
love that horsey unicorn picture. i've been losing my blog to, i'm like I'll make it swell & have great stuff and maybe get some followers/readers, because I take pride in each post (for the most part) just don't have the drive to do it since i have other websites.. but then i realized it doesn't have to be constant.
ReplyDeletei hope you feel better and everything smoothes out nicely. it's fall time, a new beautiful season. you can start fresh on anything :)
I've felt the same way before as far as trying to fit into a certain blog mold. The blogs that are popular must be popular for a reason, so if I post like them then I'll be blog popular too, right? That's ridiculous thinking. I totally lost my voice too, and after I found it again writing has come so much easier. I don't commit to anything because I personally am all over the place, thus so is my blog. It's what I want, people can take it or leave it. My life isn't all sunshine and cupcakes and crafting and vintage clothes shopping, so my blog shouldn't be either. Though sometimes it is full of all those things, and when it is, I'll make sure to write about it.
ReplyDeleteBe who you are, write what you want, and the people that are similar will find you. Or you'll find them. And even if they don't, at least you can honestly say that this is your blog, 100%.
I haven't talked to you in ages. I hope things are looking up since Tuesday.
ReplyDeleteAll I can say is that if you aren't feeling a blog post that you have been thinking about write it up but don't publish it. You may change your minid later on.
ReplyDeleteSometime I just plain don't want to do the weekly wish list and you know what? I don't do it every week.
Also, I don't like many of the same cherry bright things that 'popular' bloggers like, I'm a bit darker and more macabre and I don't think lots of people like the hear about that.
All I can say is that the people who read your blog (genuinely) will stick with it during your blog breaks and everything. We just want you to be you.